she irons and places the finished ones on top of each other creating a little pile and Eric explains what some of the colors represent and purple is for piercing and grey is for rope and yellow is for golden showers and black means s&m and if it’s worn on the left side you identify as dominant and right submissive and i think back to Baltimore to a summer in the late afternoon at the Eagle with K who i had met indirectly through someone i had dated in town and ended up spending more time with her and her friends than with him which was telling. when K and i first met she came to get me at the train station and held both her heart and the door to her white pick up truck open for me and two for one vodka sodas in the danky bar which was dark aside from the stream of glaring sunlight escaping out the corner of a blackened shade and it was empty maybe one old Queen in the background and on the wall closest to the fire exit hangs a long board with the Handkerchief Code listed out and K tells me about her operation and how she had to insert surgical dildos into her vagina every day a few times a day for a year and they gradually got bigger and i keep visualizing metal pickles and picture a tiny model that could fit in between my fingers and it would make a great Monopoly piece hanging out next to Toto and the top hat. we smoked a lot of cigarettes together and ate a really good Thai meal that weekend.
